Day 16

Today started with me at home as it was Kevs night shift.
We swap outside the hospital everyday at around 11:30am.
Last night I decided to try and shake the foul mood I was in by doing at bit of law of attraction work.
Law of attraction is a process which is generally about getting what you want and expect to happen rather than what people tell you is going to happen.

I decided that doctors most definitely don't know everything and I was tired of being told the whole host of could do's, maybe's and might's.

I decide to take matters into my own hands and start planning Brett's home coming. Home coming doesn't mean organising a huge party, though that would be wonderful, no instead it means clearing and cleaning.

I cleared and cleaned the kitchen so well that this morning it looked like we'd been burgled. I can't live like this I thought.
A statement I quickly retracted when I realised it only took 5 mins to clean the kitchen - mmm that will be useful.

Next I tried wet dusting - what!!
When I was told that I had to wet dust the house and mop the floors everyday I started to laugh, though quickly stopped when I realised they were quite serious.

I allocated my little pink bucket for the task as all it had done previously was to just sit and look good on the kitchen top.
I can tell you wet dusting is a drag.
Never mind its all in a good cause.

I was supposed to put up the Christmas decorations next. The boxes have sat in the conservatory waiting for attention for weeks.
I have delegated this task to Poppy.
She can have all the fun of trying to sort out which decorations are wet dustable or not.

I love Christmas normally but this year it's just another reminder that were a sad little dysfunctional family that can't do simple things like go on holiday or plan to eat dinner together on a set day.
People say it's only a day why worry.
I'm not worried, I'm totally pissed off.
It's not a day, its what it means, family fun together time - fun, what's that?

Anyhoo
I arrived at the hospital to find Brett has 0.1 of a white cell, no neutrophil's.
I entered his bubble saying
"Whoop de do, here we go !
hopefully the little cells won't go away again.
Vielen Dank (German for thank you)
And it's great to see you smiling Brett"

Brett replied
"I'm smiling coz you're weird and you scare me"

Charming!